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2010-07-23T15:26:00.003+08:00

What does it truly mean to move on with your life?

What do you leave behind, and what do you take with you?

What is investment? How do you know if it has made returns?

What is this feeling?

Upset because of the lost of possession?

Or is it because I lost the chance of seeing the dear ones grow up and having the same passionate love for Jesus?

Does a parent feel this way when a child walks away from his intended path?

Is this a tiny bit of how Abba feels when His sons and daughters willfully turn away? With our inherited talents and riches, running after worldly pleasures, popularity, status, beauty, intelligence, love and lusts.

And at the end of the day, when the world betrays us, and the truth hits hard, will it be too late to run back into Papa's good-ol safe and loving arms?

The Ancient of Days is eternal and unchanging. The constant One that will never fail.

Help me to realise that in Your unchanging-ness, You are never irrelevant and will always satisfy the depths of the human soul, no matter how this world tries to counterfeit Your love, goodness, blessings, and riches.

God, I'm humbled.

2008-01-02T01:55:00.000+08:00

Now Listening - air-conditioning buzz.

Found out that google provides free webhosting to all it's dear gmail account holders. And so, in an attempt to go against popular trends, I shall go on a blogger strike and pledge my allegiance to googlepages.

seowhuafenadora.googlepages.com

2007-12-25T22:13:00.000+08:00

Now Listening - Reign Forever

Hello Blogger World.

Gave up blogging the last time round 'cos I tried like three times and the pictures refused to upload.

Found something from Ken's blog which I found THOROUGHLY amusing.

amin n kakwai went to police academy alr.wonder how they're doing in there. Just hope amin does'nt get beaten up in there.

It's Christmas day so here's a carol.

Christmas isn't Christmas 'til it happens in your heart
Somewhere deep inside you is where Christmas really starts
So give your heart to Jesus, you'll discover when you do
That Christmas' really Christmas for you.

Met Serena yesterday for dinner at Pastsmania(ahem). Wonderful to just catch up even if it may just be an hour or two.

Did you see the channel 5 news yesterday at 9.30? The pastor from Church of our Risen Christ/Saviour/Rock(couldn't remember) practically preached Jesus on television. Other than the very first line that represented some meaning of Jesus of during which the subtitles failed to change (I'm suspecting whether it's deliberate), the rest of the 3-5 mins was all about how Christmas is different to different people. So what happen was that the there was the "pastor's version" which is the Christians' Christmas and then they kinda interviewed heartlanders and what Christmas meant to them differently. The point is, this is probably one of the rare times that Jesus can be outrightly preached on the Media. Wonderful. Preach it brother!

Anywaysanywaysanyways, yesterday was a crazy night when we all opened our presents (not all lah). My parents received a WEIGHING MACHINE. Measures FAT content and Water content according to age, height, gender and whether you're normal or athlete. It was CRAZY. This year's presents all happen to be terribly discriminating, no idea why. Papa got a belt which was too small, only bearly fit the last hole. Pris got a belt which was too big, couldn't even get pass the first hole. She got a book in preparation for "Mr. Right" which can be taken as a hint to GET MARRIED SOON.

We were rolling around the bed in the masterbed room laughing all night. Lol.

Hah. Other than those, the rest were quite okay lah. Its just the TERRIBLE WEIGHING MACHINE. Everybody put on weight lah after the US trip and all. Scared until tonight we all had porridge instead of rice for dinner. Chuckle.

My goodness. How I love the SEOW FAMILY. *hugs*

Lynn cheche is moving out soon. T_T. Tragic horror of horrors. One less SEOW in the world and one more Leong. WHAT IS THE WORLD BECOMING????!!! Haha, chill adora. :P

Do you realise that blogging for me is morphing into this weird thing? I no longer blog normally like normal bloggers do. What I do is like rfgjkncxcm. Yup, that's more like what I do.

2007-11-28T12:48:00.000+08:00

Now Listening - *blank*

I'm finally done packing all my notes. And this is the result.

I made a boat for all the staplets I removed from the paper that is going to be recycled. :))

A lot a lot of staple bullets. :))

And many many cardboard backings for SERENA. Happy right? Hah.

All the empty files.

Fasteners.

The amount of paper to recycle. The height of my size 8 foot. :))

And the neatly segregated piles of notes I'm keeping in order of height. Math, econs, hist, lit and GP.

The total height of the notes I'm keeping. Yes, it's more than the amount I'm throwing away.

I'm leaving for the United States of America tomorrow morning. :)) I've planned to write my christmas cards on the airplane just to save time.

Oh! I've signed up for my basic theory test yesterday and my test date is the 20th of Feb next year.

I still have yet to pack the rest of my room. Spent almost two days just sorting those notes. I'll have to pack after the trip.

List of things to do:
1. Source 5 web hosting sites for Zone website.
2. Design two web layouts for the zone.
3. Find a job.
4. Volunteer as tuition teacher at CCSC.
5. Finish writing christmas cards.
6. Logistics cum helps for cell retreat.
7. Design Lynn's wedding invitation.
8. Design Zone logo.

Busybusybusy.

2007-11-23T00:12:00.000+08:00

Now Listening - Did You Ever Talk To God in my head

Picture filled post.

I guess its a relief that the A's are finally over. The whole process was an ardous one.

Jay Cee life will always be a dear and cherished part of my life and memory. Here's why.

During GP lessons, Mr Chiang ERNESTLY answering questions. *cough*

Us working hard at GP *double cough*. Notice Mr Chiang's most trusted aide, the dictionary.

At Ms Sue's locker, either checking for marked scripts or booking consultations.

Zu Kai at GP consult. Just a glimpse into his crazy personality type.

And for how hard we work outside of school, at all the various haunts.

At Whitesands macs. Usually either with Michelle or Serena in the mornings.

Michelle's stuff.

At Tampines Starbucks with Serena. Serena's favourite study hang out. (According to her the ambience is good for studying. According to me the ambience is good for sleeping.)

My personal favourite: Siglap macs, where I always sit facing the window, and Rachel Yang always spotting me mugging on her way back home. You can see why I like it, look at all the GREENERY.

Me with my study buddy Ann at Olive Branch. Michelle likes the food there. And speaking of it, I still owe her a treat.

Me and my study buddy Jing Yi at Airport BK.

And sadly, I didn't take a picture of my all time favourite study place, SingPost Macs. :))

Exactly how hard did we work you ask?

Glimpses of my table.

And you ask why we rejoice.

(Serena's wall.)

And so what do we do in the life AFTER the A's?

We FACEBOOK.

And we clear the mess the Advanced level has brought to our homes and hence our lives.

If you don't actually realise how HIGH this stack of all my notes are (not including the rest of the notes I don't actually read), this is relative to my feet size, which is not that small you know(I wear a size 7half or something.).

HALLELUJAH.

2007-11-22T10:29:00.000+08:00

Now Listening - Solution Accoustic

8 Months! :))

I know I'm almost one day late. Didn't go home at all since the paper ended yesterday. Was at chalet with my sister to watch over her cheeky monkey kids. Which kept me up the whole night, dreaming of them for half of my sleep(because of all the noise outside the room) and all their noise woke me up at 4.40am and didn't sleep well at all after that. Cheeky monkeys. What a way to spend my post exams, without good sleep.

Anyway, it's all over. Home sweet home.

My phone died yesterday 'cause I was so tired and bored, that I played Sudoku with the little battery that was remaining.

Thank You God for answering our prayers. Nothing disastrous took place through the night when both of us were sleeping.

A little boy of thirteen was on his way to school
When he heard a crowd of people laughing
And he went to take a look
Thousands were listening to the stories of one Man
He spoke with such wisdom
Even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly
The day turned into night
Everyone was hungry
But there was no food in sight

The boy looked in his lunch box
At the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
There were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
The kindness in His smile
And the boy looked up with
the trust of a child
He said

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use them all
To feed them all

I often think about that boy
When I'm feeling small
And I worry that the work I do
Means nothing at all
And every single tear I cry
Is a diamond in His hand
Every door that slams in my face
I offer up in prayer

So I'll give You every breath that I have
O You can work miracles
All You need is my amen

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will
I surrender
Take my fears, and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in You
I trust in You

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as You will
I surrender
Take my fears and my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small
-Five Loaves and Two Fishes -Corrinne May, Beautiful Seed

2007-11-20T01:12:00.000+08:00

Now Listening - Five Loaves and Two Fishes in my head

Guess what came for me when I went to the third storey today?

GUESS!

:)))))

Finally came, and it wasn't a surprise either, it was a coersion of my sis for my birthday. hmpf. But nevermind. Heard it was going out of stock too, 'cos it was the previous stock. (See how long I waited for it. Like two years?!)

Ta-da!

In the box.

Outside the box.

The reason why. :))))

2007-11-16T01:39:00.000+08:00

Now Listening - the box fan in my room.

I'm in this rather "thankful" mood now.

I've just finished looking through the old cards and notes I've recieved since primary school. It's not a really thick stack, since I haven't really been that high profile around, but it's well enough to warm my heart.

So I just wanted to thank the following people in my life. *warning: long and mushy post.

The Lord Jesus Christ.
Thank You Lord for Your death on the cross. I will never comprehend the price which You paid not just for my soul but for the souls of humanity. I know You are looking for the pure and blameless Bride in this generation, the mature sons and daughters of God. Lord I know my faults, failures, weaknesses and inadequacies. Lord change me and make me willing to be changed by You.

Words will never be enough to thank You for Your faithfulness in my life despite the many and countless times I've been unfaithful towards You. I will never understand this love in which You have for me and will probably never fully grasp it. But I thank You all the same. "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28. And until that day comes and eternity begins, and even long after, I will never stop loving You God, for the price You paid and for buying my soul; for loving me so unconditionally, and simply for who You are; You are God.

My Dear Dear Seow Family.
Papa.
I really appreciate all the love you've shown me through the little actions that speak so much louder than words can. You can't express your love in other forms, but that's really alright, because I can FEEL it(mushy). The time every morning when you wake me up by bursting into my room with the MOP and poking that long stick with thick and wet hair through all the nooks and crannies of my messy room, usually with half the floor covered with things other than furniture (especially these days of exams, lots of files of subjects I prepare for next). And for always fetching me to school and from all the rest of the places, esp late at night. And for secretly eating my vegetables when I was young when Mummy was not looking. And for buying me that wombat stuffed toy in Australia when Mummy said, "Aiya all these at home got a lot already. Don't waste money." (Which I totally agree and advocate. But the little girl in me just HAD to have one animal, even if it meant an animal besides the koala bear or kangaroo.) I really really really appreciate all the acts of love, and even if you will never read this, I'm sure in heaven, you'll receive many many jewels for your crown, not just from me.

Mummy.
I will always remember your theory of HUG TO DE-STRESS (according to some show or report you read somewhere). And so I hugged you very often before I went down to my room for bed. Shi shang zhi you ma ma hao. You have never failed to be ever so self-sacrificial to your children despite the terrible tantrums that I throw once in a while and how these tantrums have evolved to very strange forms very recently, where I refuse to say a single word, and you simply give up. Still, I've always wondered how you do it, and how you manage to be such a wonderful parent, hardly thinking of yourself but always putting your children first. I really can't imagine myself to be as good a parent as you in future, because of how self-centred I sometimes am (or most of the time). And for all the pre-exam-nights, where I'm panicky (or not so), and you make me yan wo aka bird's nest (the stock has depleted just in time for my last major exams)! For taking leave from work on my exam days during primary school. I always felt extremely happy when you did that because primary school was the period I was really really attached to you. My dear dear mammoi, I will always be calling your name when I use my favourite toilet in the house(master bedroom) and when I come back home from wherever. Can continue, but let's move on.

Lynn and Priscilla.
My dear dear sisters. My two pillars of support in my spiritual life. I will always cherish the times we spent "hanging" out in your room and talking about life (marriages, church stuff, school, people etc.) and for your crazy entics. Like laughing uncontrollably for Lynn and voicing the stuffed toy animals sitting by the bedside for Pris. It was really only in recent years, like in sec school that I got closer to both of you all. Thank you for imparting all the Godly values that I see exemplified in your lives. And for scolding me to go and study and to not spend so much time on the computer. And for all the violent wake up calls to each other, failing half of the time. :)) And even when da jie gets married, we will still be close sisters. (getting a bit sentimental) Thank you for being such a very very great blessing in my life you two. Lynn che che and pris che che.

Ah Kong and Mama.
Although in recent years you both have seemed to really weaken physically and mentally(mama esp), I will always be ultra greatful for taking care of me when I was young when I was still in primary school and the gradual decrease in later years. For fetching me from school and eating at all those wonderful old haunts that we rotated like every three to four days. Ah kong for preparing my water bottle and tissue paper and school shoes and socks every morning for many years. For making me laugh with your special chuckle, which is still the same even until now. For always sending me to doctor Liew when I was sick, even after you couldn't drive, you took the cab with me. And not to mention monitored all my medicine taking times. Mama for making such wonderful fried durian kueh with leftover durian. And for walking all the way to the park connector because you were so worried for me when I rode there on the bicycle myself. For patting me to sleep when I couldn't go to sleep. For answering my favourite math question (what is 7 times 7) so many millions of times because I simply couldn't remember, and not getting irritated.

Uncle.
Your eccentric ways never fail to perk me up. Haha. Even today when you were all excited over the mountains of paper lynn che che didn't want. THE KARANG GUNI BLOOD RUNS IN THE FAMILY. I will never never forget the 'konk-ing' (onomatapoia) of the drink cans you collected in the middle of the night. Thought what happened you know. For the little car trips you made for me when papa wasn't around or when I was scared to ask him to drive me to church when I was already running late. I will also never forget how you only drove one car and the car number starts with SBK. Uncle, Uncle, Uncle, you are growing old, 60 already. Please eat more and don't starve yourself just to look SLIM (according to him. to me it's skinny.) and trendy. Thank you for the little things you do, I guess you're just like papa in this way. :))

What a wonderful family I have.

Sabrina Ong.
I've just read the many cards you've given me. I just wanted to say how I've looked up to you as a friend and as a leader even though you're no longer in the youth ministry and serving there. It's interesting how we like to look at the outward appearances and the talents and capabilities one have to judge how good that person is. But you're so different, you seem to be quite the average girl and not the most attractive person physically (like me. ahem. oops sp.) but wow, you're certainly one attractive person in terms of character and as a friend. You've really been such a pillar of support in my spiritual life especially these three years since we combined cell. I've always looked up to you as a sister and really respected you for your faithfulness and your love for God. Keep impacting those around you and you'll always be a dear friend to me.

Serena Chen.
You've been one great friend these past two years and esp this year when we got muchmuch closer to each other. I've reallyreally enjoyed all the pastamania meals we had (not to mention long johns, burger king and mcdonalds). I remember asking God a long while ago to give me a friend like Jonathan was to King David. But I never expected God to answer my prayer in JC when He placed You in my life. You're another one those few people which I can really open up to and talk not just about school stuff but also about spiritual stuff. It's really amazing how God brought the two of us together, and I think its safe to say this, that so far, you're the best friend that I've had (aside from my family). I've learnt so much from you and you've never failed to encourage me all the way through j2 when I felt lousy (even though I didn't show it). All the bus trips home on 15 and all the visits to your house. You're my dearest friend, Serena. And I really really pray that leaving JC wouldn't mean the end of our wonderful friendship as many of my friendships were, after each phase of my life. Even if we were to go to different unis, we must meet up often okay?

Actually I intended to thank so many other people. But I guess my weakness OVERCAME me and I started getting longwinded and now I'm very tired. I STILL have consultation tmr with Mr Wee. Wonder if his wife has delivered. Guess not.

OH YES. ONE MORE PAPER TO GO.

Literature Paper 3. I must do well.

After that. Time is luxury. Although it never was when Jesus said He was coming back quickly.

2007-11-07T01:29:00.000+08:00

Now Listening - Sanctuary Guitar-only

~~31/10 - General Paper~~
~~02/11 - Mathematics 1~~
~~06/11 - Mathematics 2~~
12/11 - Literature 1
13/11 - Economics 2
14/11 - Economics 1
15/11 - History
21/11 - Literature 3
21/11 - 1101h - FREEDOM

Had the sudden urge to set up a home recording studio. If you know what I mean. Like ever since I re-recorded Lynn's song, I've been rather intrigued at arrangements and sorts. Strange fascination, but not that new.

Anyways, I really shouldn't be up at this hour. I should be resting and waking early tomorrow, to prepare for econs and hist consults. I should be slightly panicky over the fact that I'm not fully done revising Econs, Hist and Lit. And I have less than 5 days.

I have mixed feelings. I'm happy that I've completed all 41 levels of Gridlock or what your math teacher let you play in upper primary called Rush-hour, where you gotta get the red car out of a whole lot of other vehicles. I'm a genius. HAHAH.

Okay, should stop messing around soon. Can do all these stuff after A's. It's funny how you only find these 'other' things extremely meaningful and fun when you have something more impt (like your future) to be concerned about.

2007-09-29T04:00:00.000+08:00

Now Listening - Yet Will I Praise Thee - Paradise Worship

Now I know that the Lord saves His anointed;
He will answer him from His holy heaven
With the saving strength of His right hand.
Some trust in chariots and some in horses;
But we will remember the name of the Lord our God.
Psalm 20:6-7

It's 4.02 in the morning of such a wonderful day.

And as I awake to take my bath, I'm reminded of God's goodness in my life for the past 18 years. In a rather comtemplative mood right now huh.

God I thank You for Your love and provision. Like a Father, You never let me go. Always held my hand.

Yet will I praise Thee
Lift my hands and sing
Yet will I praise Thee
I will bow before the King and praise Thee
Give to You my everything

I'm reminded again of how recently many in church have had the revelation of God not as one reprimanding, judging and severe, although we cannot deny that He is sovereign and is the righteous Judge, but we must never forget our place in the Father's house, that we can come as His child, running into His arms, for no reason at all, just to love Him and say proudly to the whole world, "Hey, this one's my papa!"

Hah, isn't it interesting that so many have repeated this within this few months? Jason Tay, William, Newson. Many times, I cannot deny, I realise that we distance ourselves from the Lord thinking that He is holy and we are full of iniquity and unworthy to gain presence before the King. But how I realise, this is not the relationship that God the Father desires to have with His children. Yes, we are unworthy. But God has provided for that on Calvary. We must not irreverent the cross of Jesus Christ and God's holiness, but why should Jesus Christ pay the highest price to rend the veil, afterwhich having His children still afar off from Him and not having that communion which He has so desired for all eternity? For His created ones to walk in the cool of the evening with their Creator God.

Maybe an excerpt from Jason's email would shed some light.

Somehow we don't have a culture of just enjoying worship. Think it's seen as more like a duty and stressful thing. Remember one time I was leading and suddenly I was standing couple of feet behind my body looking at my back and it was no longer me but the Holy Spirit leading.

It was awesome. The key is we must realize it's not going to happen because of us. JESUS is the one and only way, truth and life. We need to get a revelation of that first then have the wisdom and consecration to possess it (as Ps Norman shared last week). Without the revelation, all our soaking will be in vain, going around in circles, akin to a lamp unto our feet without a light to our path.

It's a very long time now that I feel we've actually been the ones who have been putting up barriers between ourselves and the Father. We keep saying, we are not worthy, need to prepare more, need to pay the price, etc...when the FATHER has said "Come, I have already paid the price." Yet in our human striving we keep pushing Him away by saying we have not paid the price. The breakthrough is already paid for. We simply have to get a revelation of it.

We don't change then see the glory. The Bible says "But we all, with unveiled face, *beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory,. That means we can and must first behold His glory and then be changed, not change then behold His glory. We must not in human righteousness reverse that.

Can you imagine me saying to Elizabeth "YYou have to pay a price before you can see me?" Or "You are not worthy to see me?" Of course not! In fact, I look forward to seeing my daughter everyday! When I get home and enter the door, without fail the first thing she will do is exclaim "Daddy!" and rush over to give me a hug. She doesn't think I don't deserve my daddy, I'm not worthy to touch or see him! Neither do I say "Wash your hands first before you hug me!" Or "Show me your homework first!" I embrace her tightly and ask how she is and how her day was, only after that do I check on her progress and I don't scold her if she has made a mistake in her spelling practice, I teach her patiently. Imagine if she spelt wrongly and I refused to talk to her or see her or allow her into my presence till she sorted it out. That would be ridiculous. If she doesn;t know how to spell November and I don't teach her, there's no way I can expect her to learn on her own. She would learn best if I showed and coached her personally.

If then we earthly fathers treat our children like that, how much more our heavenly Father is ever waiting to embrace us and welcome His children into His presence! And then transform us into the measure of the fullness of the stature of Christ. If we believe we have to measure up before He will meet us, then I'm afraid it will never happen because we can never measure up to that standard. That's the whole point of the Gospel, in fact the entire Bible!

Jesus rent the veil from TOP to bottom, meaning God did the tearing. Let's not put up more veils and then try to tear them from bottom to top through our human righteousness. Let us instead come boldly to the throne in full assurance that the Father is eagerly waiting to embrace us. When we have caught that, every worship time will be an awesome and wonderful time which we all will love and look forward to as the Father does.

How rightly put.

2007-09-16T22:56:00.000+08:00

Now Listening: You Never Let Go - Matt Redman - Beautiful News

hello, hello. The big Ps are almost over. And so I laugh at all those who are going to end it from tuesday onwards, because my LAST paper is TOMORROW, MONDAY 17th September 2007, HAH. *rubs salt onto examination wounds* (Ann: Whatever lah, ADORA.)(Although she might never know this.)

The weekends seem rather interesting lately.

Number 1.

September is always THE month where all we September babies rejoice. Let me name some: Lijuan (2nd), Terry (4th), Priscilla (10th), Lynn (11th), Vivien (12th), Cameron (16th), Xiwen (23rd), AHEM (29th), plus all those unspecific ones like Janice Chiang, Isaiah, Elizabeth Koh, Rex etc. That makes like 12 I know off-hand.

And so, this has been the highlight of Sept (or will be). From humble Ol throw-around-and-won't-spoil 6020 (which is so old that it is unable to produce any sound when ringing or alarm-ing). To any one of the other three, haven't decided. It's in order of preference. Vote?

Nokia 6020.

Sony Ericsson S500i. Extremely pretty. Extremely.

Nokia 6120. Of which IVAN and LYNN says is UGLY. hmpff.

Nokia 6300. Cheap and practical. Very me.

Yay. I love birthdays. (My sister got a KRUMPLER from Ivan. :S)

I got Corrinne May's CD, Beautiful Seed, these 'L' and 'P' keychains (which prisilala insists that it stands for the L and P plate for driving newbies or learners.), and chocs from The Cocoa Tree for Lynn and Prisilala. :) Obviously, we LOVE getting CDs because we ALL benefit. So much so Lynn got Pris Matt Redman's Beautiful News (Of which I am already benefitting from, cos i'm listening to it now). If you realise, these CDs are all rather old in the market, that's 'cause we all seem to be waiting for someone else to get us the CD. And that obviously has to be during birthdays.

I got myself a present too. :P An 'A' keychain, like what I got for my sisters, except not red but yellow. And 12 little ladybug magnets from popular. They're all sticking all around my monitor and notice board. So cute lah. :)

But sometimes, I feel kinda guilty, as every year, I'll get some expensive(subjective) electronic gadget from my family. Usually the most expensive amongst the three of us. Well, maybe it just happened in time that I need a new hp or an mp3 player. Er let's see, the past three years have been very costly birthdays for my family. 2005 was the Peavy Guitar ($600+), so means now its 2 years old, and I'm still loving it, although people keep asking me to change it. I remember feeling so bad after that that I told myself I was gonna save up to cover some cost, but wasn't motivated enough, oops. 2006 was my iRiver 6gb ($300+), which my family plus Ivan got. 2007, you know.

Okay, no more luxury spending next year, I'll just be very gracious and ask for some cash and splurge or save it.

Number 2.
Tomorrow's math paper in the afternoon, and it's time to study, cos I haven't done anything much for stats since one week ago, before the prelims started. All my motivation for prelims are gone. I'm looking forward more to when I start again for As, which is unfortunately starting this wednesday.

Mum booked expensive US tour. Feel even more guilty. We should have booked less expensive Japan, but Auntie Carol objected. Oh well. That's something else to look forward other than the wonderfully-luxuriously-conspicuously long 8 month break. EAT THAT, non-A-levelers.

Honestly, I've not been blogging for almost 2 years already, and I don't actually intend to revive this awfully addictive habit, but it is ESPECIALLY during EXAMINATIONS that you itch to do everything besides STUDYING. And I really mean everything. Like even pack your wardrobe, room and table. Somehow, our parents should be more happy during exams when we start to pack, instead of screaming at us to study. See, this is probably one of the few times we help out at housework, and probably the only time when housework seems appealing (in comparison to studying).

What was I saying? Oh yes, I'm not a blogger, so don't be expecting regular or even irregular posts. In short, don't expect anything. In fact, you'll probably be finding the design changing more regularly than the posts.

I blog because I'm bored.

And thus I will end my post.

2007-09-05T05:29:00.000+08:00

This is what I found on YouTube made by the 05/06 batch (I think). It's amazing how it so accurately reflects the life of a meridian mugger. :((

And an extremely sad video on an mj student mugging for 10 hours. Depressing but reality.

2007-09-05T03:47:00.000+08:00

All I want is to see Your face
All I need is a moment of grace
It's in You
That I have the faith
To stand up and be strong

'Cause I know I'm no longer bound
It's in You that I have found
Peace of mind
Freedom from my sin
And the power to love and forgive

I want to walk with You
Everyday of my life
To talk with You
In the good and the strife
You're my friend, You're my Father
For all time
Nothing can keep us apart

-Paradise Church - Unspeakable Joy

2007-09-05T01:55:00.000+08:00

I suddenly had this urge to update the internet world on what's happening, even though this site is not visited at all, other than the occasional blogskins.com downloader who browses my page. Many things have been happening recently.

Class Photo shoot

Me and my guitar (a rare occasion), mich, serena, xiwen

The clique. (plus annabel and diyanah)

06A201. From top, left: Hannah, Rani, Sabrina, Reisha
Adora, Michelle, Serena, Darren, Amin
Diyanah, Annabel, Xiwen, Ken, Mr Chiang, Kak Wai, Zu Kai

Class with Ms Rehana and Mr Wee, our wonderful lit teachers.

I really thank God for placing me in this class. Knowing my very reserved nature, He has been very gracious and MERCIFUL by placing me here. It's a great class, and definately friendships I will treasure and guard preciously. More importantly, that all who do not know Christ as their Lord and Saviour will have a chance and a decision to follow Him. And when we get married in future, I'll be attending 14 CHRISTIAN weddings.

On a very RANDOM note, have I mentioned how I amazed at how you can pluck someone out of their very average and normal everyday life, put them on TV, and with some stroke of luck and much talent, he/she can be famous? Well, now I'm mentioning it, and I am thoroughly amazed.

2007-07-18T01:03:00.000+08:00

Just For Me
Saviour of the world today
Hung upon a tree
Just to set me free
Did it so that I would notice Him

Came down to live among the men
Of a fallen world
Just to save it all
Turned it round so we were charged for nothing

Where would I be without You
My everything belongs to You

King of Majesty
You rolled the stone
So I could live again
The scars, upon Your feet
They should be mine
Some say You were weak
That You gave in
But that's the story of my life
You gave all You had
Just for me
-Paradise Live - Set Me Free

2007-04-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

Acquaintance with Grief

We are not acquainted with grief in the way in which our Lord was acquainted with it; we endure it, we get through it, but we do not become intimate with it. At the beginning of life we do not reconcile ourselves to the fact of sin. We take a rational view of life and say that a man by controlling his instincts, and by education himself, can produce a life which will slowly evolve into the life of God. But as we go on, we find the presence of something which we have not taken into consideration, viz., sin, and it upsets all our calculations. Sin has made the basis of things wild and not rational.

We have to recognise that sin is a fact, not a defect; sin is red-handed mutiny against God. Either God or sin must die in my life. The New Testament brings us right down to this one issue. If sin rules in me, God's life in me will be killed; if God rules in me, sin in me will be killed. There is no possible ultimate but that. The climax of sin is that is crucified Jesus Christ, and what was true in the history of God on earth will be true in your history and in mine. In our mental outlook we have to reconcile ourselves to the fact of sin as the only explanation as to why Jesus Christ came, and as the explanation of the grief and sorrow in life.
-excerpt from Oswald Chamber's My Utmost for the Highest

2007-02-19T21:17:00.000+08:00

It's only by Your blood
I am saved
Your power washed away the stains that blemished me
How can I even start to repay
The price You paid at Calvary
You paid for me

How can I deserve this love
What can I do that's enough

If I could shout one thing to the world
It would be to know You
If I could give my life to a cause
It would be for You
If I had just one reason to testify
It would be about the way
You set me free
You set me free
-Paradise Live Set Me Free

2007-02-08T00:05:00.000+08:00

Mountain Maker, ocean Tamer
Glimpses of You burn in my eyes
Worship of heaven fills up the skies

You made it all
Said let there be
And there was all that we see
The sound of Your voice
The works of Your hands
You do all things well
You do all things well
You do all things well

Star Creator
Wind Breather
Strokes of Your beauty
Rush through the clouds
Life from the heaven
Touching the ground

You made it all
Said let there be
And there was all that we see
The sound of Your voice
The works of Your hands
You do all things well
You do all things well
You do all things well

Imagination runs wild
Breathes the breath of life
Across the fields
Across the miles

2007-01-07T01:48:00.000+08:00

Jesus Christ, I think upon Your sacrifice
You became nothing, poured out to death
And many times
I've wondered at Your gift of life
I'm in that place once again
I'm in that place once again

Once again I look upon the cross where You died
I'm humbled by Your mercy
And I'm broken inside
Once again I thank You
Once again I pour out my life

2006
JC1, TPJC, MJC, 06A01, 06A201
Promos. :/
Cell, greater unity, boonboon and ann.
Zone, website, phenomena meetings.
Family, departure of THE MAID. (more housework. :()
17 years as daughter and sister, 11 years of education, 7 years as Christian, 5 years in Cornerstone, 4 years as projectionist, 1 lifetime of God's faithfulness.

2007
Block CAs, Mid-yrs, Prelims, As.
Resolutions in short:
1. Read more of God's word.
Pray more.
Spend more time with God.
2. Fruits: Self-control and meekness
3. Discipline and Diligence
4. Shepherding and Discipleship
5. Neat, Tidy and Organised
6. Focus.

2007 - When the impossible becomes possible!

2006-12-26T01:59:00.000+08:00

I know I told myself I wouldn't blog anymore. I'm not going to. I just wanted to be thankful and thank some people for the gifts I received this Christmas. And I'm unquestionably guilty of not getting gifts for anyone, perhaps only my eldest sis, which I'm sharing her gift with my second sis.

Here goes, in order of time received:
1. Mummy (and Papa) - The Baby G watch, white, nice and my type. I chose it of course.
2. Auntie Gina - Some Body Shop Body foam stuff, which I don't think I'll use. No wonder I don't smell that fragrant, do I? Gave that to my mum to use.
3. Jerr - A cadbury eclair. Hah, cos I was on duty in the sound room, and he was too. It was blueberry. Loved it, boosted my sugar level since I hadn't had breakfast or lunch. So sweet of him, though its not much I know.
4. Maxine - Ferrero Rocher, the rectangular box, two layers type. Typical gift, but I see the heart. Thanks so much dear. :))
5. Merri - a small lil box of some sweetsweet sticky chocolate stuff with colourful marshmallows on top. I really enjoyed that. Ate two, and gave one to Pris to cheer her up for some reasons.
6. Liuyan - A massager! Not the chair (how I wish), but this stick with a PIG at the end of it, the one from MINI TOONS. Hah, she took the cell to shop for them before 3rd service. I was on projection duty, so I had to be content with piggy, of which I am greatly. You had no idea how useful and ept it came in to be, since my legs were AWFULLY aching after three days of Christmas@Katong/Joo Chiat and three consecutive duties I had for three services.
7. Lijuan - A chocolate candy with coffee in it. I just ate it. :))
8. Lynn and Ivan - Good things come in pairs. Haha. Anyway, Ivan dropped by in the morning, when I was reading the papers, to pick my sis up to his auntie's place for lunch. And so after that he passed me a gift, saying its from Lynn and him, and she picked it. A fairly large packet, so was wondering what it was. But I went to sleep, being to bored by the news. And opened it half in my sleep awhile later, discovering it to be a pair of slippers! Hah, I'm not the slippers type, but I suppose I've been wishing a bit to own a set. You know, not the Trail or Shayer type, but the OP or Billabong type? Yah, you get my point. The presents have been coming combined from them both these days. Thanks guys!
9. Priscillala! - A guardian MOOMOOCOW!!! So cute lah! It's staring at me now. AHHHHH!!! SO CUTE!!! Furry too. Guardian as in Guardian Pharmacy. She said she spent like ten minutes there pulling and digging for one with a nice face, until the guy must have been irritated. Haha, she said she this year budget, but its really the thought that counts. And have I mentioned that its really very cute? I could continue with the gifts that I got for my birthday, or the gifts that my family recieved. But lets do cards.

This year its all time low, but no matter. :))
1. Serena - yours came early. thanks so much for remembering dear.
2. Jonathan Lok - didn't expect any from my camp group. but he came running up to the sound room before 3rd service. awww, how thoughtful.
3. Sherni - I'll remember to chase you to improve your guitar skills. Lol.
4. Merri - Round with icecream stick attached. thanks!
5. Kelvin - another camp group member. even more didnt expect a card from him. hah. That's all.

And there are the smses I recieved. Lizzy's, rather early at 10:15, Kiran's 11:56, didnt expect hers, Jonathan Lok's 12:00, Amanda P 12:05, Suann 12:24, Christel 7:46pm today. I didnt send any out other than the replies. That would definately cost me a bomb since I already exceeded December's bill, which is the usual during this season.

All in all, I'm really thankful for all these people for remembering and bothering, whether it be a present or just an sms. (Although I didn't recieve any from my wishlist as expected.) As I said, I actually feel quite terrible for not getting anyone gifts, and even though I made bookmarks this year, I didn't include everyone, and so when some pple noticed they didnt recieve, I felt terrible. So its thank you and sorry. :) :(

2006-12-19T00:07:00.000+08:00

Made To Worship - Chris Tomlin
Capo 4 (G)

Before the day, before the light
Before the world revolved around the sun
God on High, stepped down into time
And wrote the story of His Love for everyone

He has filled our hearts with wonder
So that we always remember

You and I are made to worship
You and I are called to love
You and I are forgiven and free
When you and I embrace surrender
When you and I choose to believe
Then you and I will see
Who we were meant to be

All we are and all we have
Is all a gift from God that we receive
Brought to life, we open up our eyes
To see the majesty and glory of the King

Even the rocks cry out
Even the heavens shout
At the sound of His Holy Name
So let every voice sing out
And let every knee bow down
He is worthy of all our praise

2006-12-16T00:07:00.000+08:00

Show me Your ways
That I may walk with You
Show me Your ways
I put my hope in You

The cry of my heart is to know You more
To live in the touch of Your hand
Stronger each dayShow me Your ways

2006-12-05T02:00:00.000+08:00

Everyday they pass me by
I can see it in their eyes
Empty people filled with care
Headed who knows where

On they go through private pain
Living fear to fear
Laughter hides their silent cries
Only Jesus hears

People need the Lord
People need the Lord
At the end of broken dreams
He's the open door
People need the Lord
People need the Lord
When will we realize
That we must give our lives
For people need the Lord